From not liking the taste of beer to dancing on and crashing through tables at the Union Front Bar to Chumbawamba Jenny's story is a gradual climb from fun to not fun at all. "I was always more extreme than anyone else." Eventually the wheels come off and the trail of damage piles up. Jenny shares her story about how she just stopped fighting, surrendered, learned the right coping mechanisms, and finally learned how to be alone.
I am extremely proud of this episode. Jenny is a friend of mine and I am honored she put her trust in me. Thank you Jenny. Thank you for sharing and I couldn't be happier that I was able to be a part of your journey.
1. TikTok Light
2. Menthol cigarettes
3. P-Funks and Blow
4. University of Iowa and the Union Bar
5. Shots of Rumpleminz
6. Chumbawamba and crashing through tables
7. Is sharing caring?
8. Addicts helping other addicts
9. Failing at recovery and ripping alligator tails
10. A normal upbringing
11. Alcohol was my poison
12. Are JJ Peppers still around?
13. "I was always more extreme than everyone else."
14. Drinking, going out constantly, then a decade pause
15. Binge drinking and divorce
16. The wheels come off
17. "My coping mechanism was off."
18. New love, new habits, same problems
19. Blackout wedding
20. Addiction comparison
21. Finding new "hot mess" friends
22. Sober deadlines
23. Blackout infidelity
24. "I can't control myself. I need help"
25. Morning after pill
26. I want another beer
27. Coming clean
28. Intensive Outpatient Program (IOP)
29. Rehab was eye-opening
30. A nerd in the font row
31. Get a sponsor, go to AA
32. Prejudged AA
33. Whole Foods, bright cans, IPAs, and a relapse
34. Unloading the evidence and Hydroflasks
35. Relapse guilt and lying
36. Divorce and DCFS
37. "I surrender. I just stopped fighting everything"
38. Strict sponsor
39. I was good at lying
40. Everything and nothing moments
41. What is it with New York City?
42. The reasons have to be your own.
43. "Passed out with my pants down in October in Chicago?"
44. It's a subtle change, the fight just leaves
45. Success comes from within
46. Addicts are stubborn
47. Two-years later, it's not easy, but things are good
48. "I'm ok being alone, finally."
49. Self-care and making yourself a priority
50. Quieting your mind
51. Reconnecting with my life.
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My name is Casey Arrillaga. I am a social worker and addiction counselor, but just as importantly, I am a family member like so many of you. My wife Kira and I both come from families with addiction, we were in our addictions together for over 10 years, and we have been in recovery together for almost 20 years. We now both work in the recovery field to try to pay forward what was so generously given to us.
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End Your Covert Mission is the first of its kind, connecting the impact veteran culture has on the perception of pain and substance use within the veteran population. We offer real-life tactics from real veterans who share their personal stories of physical, emotional, mental and social pain—and their proven steps for living healthier, happier lives.
This guide is strategically designed to help you quiet the silence and raise the voice of a renewed life after service:
Understand you’re not alone
Learn new strategies for managing pain
Study language for admitting, describing and sharing various types of pain
Gain insight from veterans’ personal stories
Learn proven approaches for connecting with other veterans and family members
Access methods to address active substance use
Learn how to identify and manage risk factors for future substance use disorders
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Robb Kelly, PhD – The Recovery Expert – was born in Manchester England. He grew up in a family of musicians and developed a strong love for music at an early age. He was performing on stage at the age of nine. During his early twenties, he worked at the elite and influential Abbey Roads Studio, as a session musician in London.
Addiction was always close to his heart as Dr. Kelly was born into a family that had a history of alcoholism. He began drinking and using drugs at an early age, but he managed to stay on a path of success, moving to Oxford in the early 1980’s to pursue a PhD in Psychology at the prestigious University of Oxford. He continued to drink heavily during his time in Oxford – but still managed to complete his Doctorate studies, graduating with a PhD in psychology in 1984.
Even though he was a heavy drinker – no one would have predicted, that he would be living on the streets of Manchester, homeless and alone. He recalls the night where he had a staggering revelation when it came to his own alcoholism. It would later coin two of his most popular catch phrases: “The Problem is not our Drinking, it is our Thinking” and “Step out of the Disease, and into the Solution.”
Dr. Kelly was standing on a street corner one night in Manchester. His body was shaking from alcohol withdrawal, and he stood in front of a liquor store, trembling, desperately waiting for the store to open. He knew that as soon as he drank that first sip of alcohol, he would feel relief.
As soon as the liquor store opened, he rushed into the store. The clerk grabbed a bottle of Vodka from the shelf, and placed it in a brown paper bag in front of him. As he lifted the bag in his hands his trembling stopped. His body stopped shaking and his mind rested at ease. He had not even taken that first sip; it was just the promise of alcohol that stopped his shaking and eased his restless mind.
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I've taken it right back to the basics. It's been harder than I thought.
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