Balancing Acts: Navigating the Utility of Religion and Facing the Abyss with Terence

Contact Us
If you would like to get in contact with Irene or I, you can reach us at beyondthephysics.jg@gmail.com

Follow Us

Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/beyondthephysics
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/BeyondthePhysics/
Twitter: https://twitter.com/Beyond_Physics

Free Opinion Disclaimer: The views and opinions expressed on Beyond the Physics are those of the authors and do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of any university, employer or program. Any content provided by our authors are of their opinion, and are not intended to malign any religion, ethic group, club, organization, company, individual or anyone or anything.

Contact Us
If you would like to get in contact with Irene or I, you can reach us at beyondthephysics.jg@gmail.com

Follow Us

Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/beyondthephysics
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/BeyondthePhysics/
Twitter: https://twitter.com/Beyond_Physics

Where to find Michael's work!

1. https://www.instagram.com/michaeljjaramillo/
2. https://www.instagram.com/michaeljaramillophotography/
3. Master's Thesis

If you want to keep up with the program

Links (Education and potentially useful resources to supplement the podcast)

APS Bridge Program:

• https://aps.org/programs/minorities/bridge/

Details on Bitter Electromagnets: 

• https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bitter_electromagnet

How to get healthcare (in the US) when unemployed: 

• https://www.healthcare.gov/unemployed/

Narcissism (and their communal variants):

• Crash Course on Narcissim by Dr. Ramani: https://youtu.be/V87G95bGTTk
• Video focusing on Communal Narcissm: https://youtu.be/aF8fiHTbGtY
• Article on Communal Narcissism: https://www.choosingtherapy.com/communal-narcissism/

Rough Timestamps (hh:mm:ss)

Introduction: Start to 00:02:20

Why pursue physics / astronomy: 00:02:30 to 00:06:00

Beginning Observational Astronomy: 00:0600 to 00:11:30

Time-domain Astronomy, Gravitational lensing: 00:11:30 to 00:13:00

Astronomy in Alabama to Michigan: 00:13:30 to 00:16:10

Ancient people having connection with the sky: 00:17:00 to 00:18:30

Brazil travel: 00:18:30 to 00:19:30

Back to why astronomy, Connecting to the universe: 00:20:00 to 00:25:00

“Putting numbers to things”, Learning the physics:  00:25:00 to 00:37:00

• “So much work to enjoy one of my five classes”: 00:33:00
• “Theme that echoes into grad school”: 00:33:25 

In Grad School, when do you get to do what you love?: 00:38:00 to 00:43:00

What did you learn in school vs on the job? : 00:43:00 to 00:50:00

• Masters in Neutron Star astrophysics: 00:46:45

What’s next? : 00:51:00 to 00:53:00

New school, New problems Advisor, Research opportunities (Bait and switch): 00:53:00 to 01:02:00 

• “Stink” associated with being a bridge student
• “Left more meetings in tears than not” : 00:57:00

Jaded on the bridge program: 00:57:00 to 00:59:00

Forced into condensed matter, research experience: 01:02:30 to 01: 

Counseling (in and out of school): 01:13:00 to 01:15:00

Near death experience: 01:15:00 to 01:34:30

At the present, so to speak, Finding Balance, Confidence, Counseling: 01:35:00 to 01:50:00

Connection to Joe’s break “I don’t know who I am after I leave”: 01:51:30 to 01:54:15

What is your purpose without astronomy? (Bird, astrophotography. Skateboarding): 01:54:15 to 2:00:00

Expectations to provide and be emotionless: 02:00:00 to 02:08:40

Suffering leads to compassion: 02:08:40 to 02:10:00

Joe’s experience with his advisor: 02:10:00 to 02:26:00

How would you view your past experience now? : 02:26:00 to 02:30:00

How do you feel now that you are out of grad school?: 02:32:00 to End

Free Opinion Disclaimer: The views and opinions expressed on Beyond the Physics are those of the authors and do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of any university, employer or program. Any content provided by our authors are of their opinion, and are not intended to malign any religion, ethic group, club, organization, company, individual or anyone or anything.

Contact Us
If you would like to get in contact with Irene or I, you can reach us at beyondthephysics.jg@gmail.com

Follow Us

Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/beyondthephysics

Youtube:https://youtube.com/@beyond_the_physics
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/BeyondthePhysics/
Twitter: https://twitter.com/Beyond_Physics
If you want to keep up with the program.

Links (Education and potentially useful resources to supplement the podcast)

Case Study of Serum Sickness in Dog due to Antivenin: 

• https://drive.google.com/file/d/1V9aTDO4I3U3T_Pre3XPXVKD62mu6KQF9/view?usp=sharing

BCG Therapy Info by American Cancer Society:

• https://www.cancer.org/cancer/types/bladder-cancer/treating/intravesical-therapy.html

Communal Narcissism:

• https://www.choosingtherapy.com/communal-narcissism/
• Dr. Ramani Video: https://youtu.be/aF8fiHTbGtY

Rough Timestamps

Introduction: Start to 00:04:00

Irene Doctoral Candidacy + Summer School in Pittsburgh: 00:04:00 to 00:10:00

Dealing with Anxiety / Panic Attacks: 00:10:00 to 00:16:00

Sage Emergency, Snake Bite, Kidney Failure (+ Joe Qualification Exam Prep): 00:16:00 to 00:35:00

Joe Qualification Exam: 00:35:00 to 00:40:00

Irene Father Health Emergency (Lack of space to Mourn): 00:40:00 to 01:03:30

Spring 2023

Irene Playing music again + Rock Climbing: 01:03:30 to 01:09:10

Joe Spring 2023, Prospectus + Rock Climbing: 01:09:10 to 01:16:50

Irene Scholarship: 01:16:50 to 01:19:00

Joe “Incident” with Advisor: 01:19:00 to 01:47:50

Summer 2023, Travel, Summer school in Brazil: 01:48:00 to End

Free Opinion Disclaimer: The views and opinions expressed on Beyond the Physics are those of the authors and do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of any university, employer or program. Any content provided by our authors are of their opinion, and are not intended to malign any religion, ethic group, club, organization, company, individual or anyone or anything.

Contact Us
If you would like to get in contact with Irene or I, you can reach us at beyondthephysics.jg@gmail.com

Follow Us

Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/beyondthephysics

Youtube:https://youtube.com/@beyond_the_physics
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/BeyondthePhysics/
Twitter: https://twitter.com/Beyond_Physics
If you want to keep up with the program.

Links (Education and potentially useful resources to supplement the podcast)

Internal Family Systems Information : 

• https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/therapy-types/internal-family-systems-therapy

Dissociative Identity Disorder Information:

• https://www.psychiatry.org/patients-families/dissociative-disorders/what-are-dissociative-disorders

Where to watch Moon Knight (Not a sponsor):

• https://www.disneyplus.com/series/moon-knight/4S3oOF1knocS

Rough Timestamps (mm:ss)

Start - 08:00: Introduction & Catch up

08:00 - 09:15: Value of mental excercise

09:15 -  13:55 : Context from the show

14:15 -  24:00 : Context from my life & My Existential Crisis

Quote: "My Body on Railroad Tracks": 17:55

24:30 - 37:20 :  "Who's My Mark and Who's my Steven?"

26:35 -  31:00 : Defining Mark

31:00 - 33:00 : Chink in Mark's Armor

33:00 - 34:45 : Who am I?

34:45 - 37:20 : Defining Steven

37:20 -  42:20 : The conflict between Mark and Steven

42:30 - 46:00 : Steven's right to exist ( despite what society may say )

46:00 - 48:33 : Take aways, Moving towards integration

48:33 - 50:30 : Homework for you!

50:30 - End : Outro

Free Opinion Disclaimer: The views and opinions expressed on Beyond the Physics are those of the authors and do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of any university, employer or program. Any content provided by our authors are of their opinion, and are not intended to malign any religion, ethic group, club, organization, company, individual or anyone or anything.

Contact Us
If you would like to get in contact with Irene or I, you can reach us at beyondthephysics.jg@gmail.com

Follow Us

Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/beyondthephysics
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/BeyondthePhysics/
Twitter: https://twitter.com/Beyond_Physics
If you want to keep up with the program.

Links

Where to find the Eigenbros: https://www.youtube.com/c/Eigenbros/featured

https://www.patreon.com/eigenbros

https://eigenbros.com/

Rough Timestamps:

QFT Discussion (Scattering Amplitudes, Feynman Rules, References): 

Start to 30 mins

Astro stuff (Quantizing Gravity, Neutron Stars, Black Holes): 30 to 50 mins

Movies / TV (Tenet, Primer, Interstellar, 2001 Space Odyssey, Moon Knight (DID), Jesus Christ Superstar) 50 to 70 mins

Religion (Social Utility, Education, Politics): 70 to 85 mins

Microplastics and Clippy: 85 to End

Contact Us
If you would like to get in contact with Irene or I, you can reach us at beyondthephysics.jg@gmail.com

Follow Us

Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/beyondthephysics
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/BeyondthePhysics/
Twitter: https://twitter.com/Beyond_Physics
If you want to keep up with the program.

Links

Where to find the Eigenbros: https://www.youtube.com/c/Eigenbros/featured

https://www.patreon.com/eigenbros

https://eigenbros.com/

References

At the beginning of the episode Juan tries to recall the "Sandia National Laboratories" in New Mexico.

Rough Timestamps (hh:mm:ss)

Start - 00:02:07: Introduction

00:02:07 - 00:03:52 : Where'd We Leave off

00:03:52 - 00:09:07 : Eigenbros is changing, New jobs, Catching Omicron

00:09:07 - 00:21:37 : Recap on events since last interview

00:21:37 - 00:24:22 : Why apply to schools?

00:24:22 - 00:28:22: Working for Uber Eats and the Post Office

00:28:22 - 00:31:37 : Struggles with interviews

00:31:37 - 00:36:22 : How is Eigenbros changing?

00:36:22 - 00:42:07 : Conflict between the bros?

00:42:07 - 00:51:07 : Producing Higher Quality

00:51:07 - 01:05:07 : Honest thoughts about leaving program

00:52:51  : “Feelings leaving grad school” Quote

00:54:29 : “Stillborn” Quote

01:05:07 - 01:13:22 : Philosophy of the Physics Department

01:13:37 - 01:43:22 : Centering Your needs, Equity

01:21:10 : “It’s their loss” Quote

01:26:07 : “We never see you” Quote

01:39:25 : “Controlled Rage” Quote

01:43:22 - 01:48:37 : Difference in perception after passing Qualifying exam

01:51:07 - 2:02:37 : Treatment of students by teachers

02:02:37 - 02:19:55 : Appreciation of empathy in professional spaces

02:19:55 - End : Outro

Free Opinion Disclaimer: The views and opinions expressed on Beyond the Physics are those of the authors and do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of any university, employer or program. Any content provided by our authors are of their opinion, and are not intended to malign any religion, ethic group, club, organization, company, individual or anyone or anything.

Contact Us
If you would like to get in contact with Irene or I, you can reach us at beyondthephysics.jg@gmail.com

Follow Us

Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/beyondthephysics
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/BeyondthePhysics/
Twitter: https://twitter.com/Beyond_Physics
If you want to keep up with the program.

Links

Needs Inventory: https://www.cnvc.org/training/resource/needs-inventory

Feelings Inventory: https://www.cnvc.org/training/resource/feelings-inventory

Rough Timestamps

Start to 2:34 - Introduction

2:34 to 3:49  - Overview 

3:49 to (6:49 Irene Start) 11:56 - Recap of Summer 2021

11:56 to (14:50 Irene Start) 21:00  - Fall 2021 (Taking a break, Therapy, NVC, Grading, Struggle w/ Schedule, Back Degeneration)

21:00 to (24:10 Irene Start) 29:20  - Spring 2022 (Coming back to school, Teaching in person)

29:40 to 34:30 - Why take a break?

34:30 to 37:00 - What was the plan for the break?

37:00 to 55:00 - What did you learn about yourself from the break? What role did physics culture play in necessitating the break? 

55:00 to 58:30 -Advocating for our needs

59:00 to 1:08:00 - Practical Steps during the break (Therapy, Nutrition)

1:08:00 to 1:23:30 - NVC

1:23:30 to 1:44:00 - COVID (Social Stimuli, Distractions)

1:44:30 to End (Outro)

Free Opinion Disclaimer: The views and opinions expressed on Beyond the Physics are those of the authors and do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of any university, employer or program. Any content provided by our authors are of their opinion, and are not intended to malign any religion, ethic group, club, organization, company, individual or anyone or anything.

Contact Us
If you would like to get in contact with Irene or I, you can reach us at beyondthephysics.jg@gmail.com

Follow Us

Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/beyondthephysics
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/BeyondthePhysics/
Twitter: https://twitter.com/Beyond_Physics
If you want to keep up with the program.

Links

Veritasium Luck Video (Not Affiliated) :https://youtu.be/3LopI4YeC4I

Needs Inventory: https://www.cnvc.org/training/resource/needs-inventory

Feelings Inventory: https://www.cnvc.org/training/resource/feelings-inventory

Rough Timestamps

Introduction (Fan music): Start - 1:50

Irene’s Classes + Research : 1:50 - 8:50 

Joe’s Classes : 8:50 - 11:00

Opening up: 11:00 

Patterns of thought: 12:57 - 14:50

Retaking coursework: 15:05 - 18:35

Anxiety, Imposter Syndrome, emotional blocks : 18:50 - 26:50

Perceptions of self: 27:50 - 29:50

Experience with Therapy: 30:05  

Source of feelings: 32:40 - 39:05

Effects of that event: 39:05 - 41:50

Why was that experience so hurtful? 42:50 - 47:20

Luck and hierarchy in physics: 47:30 - 53:55

Naming the story: 55:00 - 1:02:50

Values bring perspective: 1:02:50 - 01:07:30

Breakthrough: 01:07:50 - 01:13:35

Full Fanmade Song: 1:25:30

Free Opinion Disclaimer: The views and opinions expressed on Beyond the Physics are those of the authors and do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of any university, employer or program. Any content provided by our authors are of their opinion, and are not intended to malign any religion, ethic group, club, organization, company, individual or anyone or anything.

Our guests discussing the book today are:

Terence, Ricardo (Ricky) Castaneda, and Edward (Ed) Benavidez, show them some love for coming on!

Follow Us
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/BeyondthePhysics/
Twitter: https://twitter.com/Beyond_Physics
Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/beyondthephysics
If you want to keep up with the program.

Follow eigenbros at : https://linktr.ee/Eigenbros

Contact Us
If you would like to get in contact with Irene or I, you can reach us at beyondthephysics.jg@gmail.com

If you would like to hear more, find our previous podcast with Terence: https://beyond-the-physics.simplecast.com/episodes/ep1-terence

and with Edward Benavidez: https://beyond-the-physics.simplecast.com/episodes/10-edward-benavidez

Rough Timestamps

00:02:30 - 00:08:30 : Introductions + Synopsis + First Impressions

00:09:15 - 00:12:45 : Defining Panpsychism

00:12:45 - 00:16:30 : Defining Consciousness (Chapter 1)

00:16:30 - 00:19:30 : Is memory necessary for consciousness?

00:19:30 - 00:30:30 : Decision making fundamental to consciousness (viruses conscious)?

00:30:30 - 00:41:30 :Unit of Consciousness (Consciousness Particle?)

00:42:30 - 00:59:30 : Can we tell if someone/something is conscious from the outside?

01:00:30 - 01:20:30 : Binding

01:22:15 - 01:50:30: Sense of Self, Split brain, boundary of consciousness

01:51:30 -  02:01:30: Is consciousness useful? Must it exist? (back to consciousness from the outside)

02:02:00 - 02:28:30 : Consciousness and Time (Presentism vs Eternalism, Nature of Time, Physics lesson)

02:30:00 - End : Higher levels of consciousness?

Free Opinion Disclaimer: The views and opinions expressed on Beyond the Physics are those of the authors and do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of Annaka Harris, any State University, or Scholarship program. Any content provided by our authors are of their opinion, and are not intended to malign any religion, ethic group, club, organization, company, individual or anyone or anything.

Bookclub

Our first assigned reading is: "Conscious: A Brief Guide to the Fundamental Mystery of the Mind" By Annaka Harris, you can find a copy to purchase here: Amazon

(We are not affiliated or sponsored by this product)

Message us questions using the email under "Contact Us" if you're interested in participating

Contact Us
If you would like to get in contact with Irene or I, you can reach us at beyondthephysics.jg@gmail.com

Follow Us
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/BeyondthePhysics/
Twitter: https://twitter.com/Beyond_Physics
Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/beyondthephysics
If you want to keep up with the program.

Rough Timestamps

Intro: 00:00:00 - 00:04:30

Background (First scientist in family): 00:08:15

Journey before physics (psychology, medical doctor): 

00:08:30 - 00:14:30

Dropping in on engineering classes, switching majors: 00:14:45 -  00:18:45

Going back to community college after “graduating” (choosing physics): 

00:19:15 - 00:22:30

Physics Tutoring Job: 00:24:15 - 00:25:30

CSULB: 00:26:15

Why was psychology a bad fit? : 00:27:30 - 00:34:45

Starting LB physics: 00:34:45 

Finding Graphene: 00:36:30 - 00:39:15

CSULB SPS (presidency): 00:39:30 - 00:41:30

Research and its culture: 00:42:15 - 01:01:15

(Mentor in a coma: 00:55:00)

(Hazing: 00:57:30)

Long Beach vs UML (and Knoxville) culture: 01:01:30 - 01:32:45

Physics Relies on engineering: 01:32:45 - 01:43:30

Why go to UMass Lowell? : 01:46:30 - 01:53:30

Getting started with research: 01:54:00 - 01:59:30

Qualifying Exam: 01:59:30 - 02:11:45

Family’s Feelings Now: 02:13:15 - 02:23:00

Irene’s BA time: 02:23:30 - 02:29:30

Csulb Memories: 02:32:30 - 02:34:30

Unhappy during 20’s: 02:38:30 - 02:41:30

Finished Psychology?: 02:43:15 - 02:45:00

Psycho physics?: 02:45:00 - 02:49:30

Book Club (Conscious): 02:50:30 - 02:53:30

Ghosts (using radar) and Bigfoot: 02:53:30 - 03:01:30

Radar in tech: 03:01:30 - 03:07:30

Final Questions (goal after phd, what makes a perfect mentor): 03:08:30 - 03:15:15

Title: 03:20:45

Free Opinion Disclaimer: The views and opinions expressed on Beyond the Physics are those of the authors and do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of any State University, or Scholarship program. Any content provided by our authors are of their opinion, and are not intended to malign any religion, ethic group, club, organization, company, individual or anyone or anything.