BONUS EPISO... rant
Host Lori Windfeldt takes a new approach at connecting with her listeners. Recorded "live" in her car, Lori questions her responsibility as a coach and recovering alcoholic, to have stopped someone from her 12 step home group (which she hasn't attended in a long time) making a personal purchase. After listening, please bounce on facebook page and search for "guy at the gas station" and comment your thoughts.
SONGS MENTIONED w/ link:
OK NOT TO BE OK - Demi Levato & Marshmello
Lyrics:
Feeling like a drop in the ocean that don’t nobody notice
Maybe it’s all just in your head
Feeling like you’re trapped in your own skin, and now your body’s frozen
Broken down, you’ve got nothing left
When you’re high on emotion and you’re losing your focus and you feel too exhausted to pray
Don’t get lost in the moment or give up when you’re closest, all you need is somebody to say
It’s okay not to be okay
It’s okay not to be okay
When you’re down and you feel ashamed
It’s okay not to be okay
Feeling like your life’s an illusion and lately you’re secluded
Thinking you’ll never get your chance
Feeling like you got no solution, it’s only ‘cause you’re human
No control its out of your hands
When you’re high on emotion and you’re losing your focus and you feel too exhausted to pray
Don’t get lost in the moment or give up when you’re closest, all you need is somebody to say
It’s okay not to be okay
It’s okay not to be okay
When you’re down and you feel ashamed
It’s okay not to be okay
When you’re high on emotion and you’re losing your focus and you feel too exhausted to pray
Don’t get lost in the moment or give up when you’re closest, all you need is somebody to say
It’s okay not to be okay
It’s okay not to be okay
When you’re down and you feel ashamed
It’s okay not to be okay
It’s okay not to be okay
COME AND GO -Juice WRLD & Marshmello
I try to be everything that I can
But sometimes I come out as bein' nothin'
I try to be everything that I can
But sometimes I come out as bein' nothin'
I pray to God that he make me a better man, uh
Maybe one day I'ma stand for somethin'
I'm thankin' God that he made you part of the plan
I guess I ain't go through all that Hell for nothin'
I'm always fuckin' up and wreckin' shit, it seems like I perfected it
I offer you my love, I hope you take it like some medicine
You tell me, ain't nobody better than me, I think that there's better than me
Hope you see the better in me, always end up betterin' me
I don't wanna ruin this one
This type of love don't always come and go
I don't wanna ruin this one
This type of love don't always come and go
We take drugs, then you hold me close
Then I tell you how you make me whole
Sometimes I feel you like bein' alone
Then you tell me that I should've stayed in the room
Guess I got it all wrong, all along, my fault
My mistakes probably wipe all the rights I've done
Sayin' goodbye to bygones, those are bye, gones
Head up, baby, stay strong, we gon' live long
This type of love don't always come and go
I don't wanna ruin this one
This type of love don't always come and go
DEMI LEVATO: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Demi_Lovato
Lovato had suffered from bipolar disorder, Anorexia nervosa (binge type), self-harm, and being bullied before she went into rehab at age 18.[256][257] On November 1, 2010, Lovato withdrew from the Jonas Brothers: Live in Concert tour, entering a treatment facility for "physical and emotional issues".[258] It was reported[259] that she decided to enter treatment after punching female dancer Alex Welch; her management and family convinced her she needed help. Lovato said she took "100 percent, full responsibility" for the incident.[256] On January 28, 2011, Lovato completed inpatient treatment at Timberline Knolls and returned home. She acknowledged that she had bulimia, had cut herself, and had been "self-medicating" with drugs and alcohol "like a lot of teens do to numb their pain".[260] She added that she "basically had a nervous breakdown" and was diagnosed with bipolar disorder during her treatment. Lovato later said that she had used cocaine several times a day and smuggled cocaine onto airplanes.
In April 2011, Lovato became a contributing editor for Seventeen magazine, writing an article that described her struggles.[263] In March 2012, MTV aired a documentary, Demi Lovato: Stay Strong, about her rehab and recovery.[264] She began work on her fourth studio album the following month.[265] In January 2013, it was reported that Lovato had been living in a sober-living facility in Los Angeles for over a year because she felt it was the best way to avoid returning to her addictions and eating disorder.[266] Lovato celebrated the six-year anniversary of her sobriety on March 15, 2018.[267]
In her 2017 YouTube documentary Demi Lovato: Simply Complicated, Lovato revealed publicly that her treatment at Timberline Knolls was not entirely successful, stating that she still struggled with alcoholism and a cocaine addiction in the year following her stint in the treatment centre and further revealing that she was in fact under the influence of cocaine while being interviewed about her sobriety for Demi Lovato: Stay Strong.[268][269][270][271] She stated: "I wasn't working my program. I wasn't ready to get sober. I was sneaking it on planes, sneaking it in bathrooms, sneaking it throughout the night. Nobody knew."[269]
Lovato also stated that her drug and alcohol addictions caused her to not only nearly overdose several times, but later began to impact her ability to perform and promote her third studio album Unbroken, referencing a 2012 performance on the eleventh season of American Idol where she was severely hungover.[268][270][271] After her management team had expressed their intentions to leave her, Lovato agreed to resume treatment and counseling for her addictions, leading to her move to a sober-living facility in Los Angeles with roommates and responsibilities to help her overcome her drug and alcohol problems.[268][271]
On June 21, 2018, Lovato released the single "Sober" in which she revealed she had relapsed following six years of sobriety.[272] On July 24, 2018, she was rushed to the Cedars-Sinai Medical Center in Los Angeles after emergency services were called to her home due to an opioid overdose.[273][274] She was reported to be stable and recovering later in the day.[273] Lovato was reported to have overdosed on oxycodone laced with fentanyl[275] and was revived with naloxone.[276] She was hospitalized for two weeks and subsequently entered an in-patient rehab facility.[277] In December 2018, Lovato took to Twitter to dismiss rumors regarding her overdose and went on to thank her fans, writing: "If I feel like the world needs to know something, I will tell them MYSELF. All my fans need to know is I'm working hard on myself, I'm happy and clean and I'm SO grateful for their support." She went on to add that some day she would "tell the world what exactly happened, why it happened and what my life is like today.. but until I'm ready to share that with people please stop prying and making up shit that you know nothing about. I still need space and time to heal."
Lovato later revealed in a 2020 interview on The Ellen DeGeneres Show that her worsened struggles with bulimia in 2018 contributed to her eventual drug overdose, as she relapsed three months prior to the incident due to being extremely unhappy.[279] She attributed these struggles to the extreme measures that her then-manager, Phil McIntyre, took to control what she ate.[280] Lovato further explained that, along with the controlling nature of her management team, they did not provide her with the help she needed, commenting: "People checking what my orders at Starbucks were on my bank statements... just little things like that... it led me to being really unhappy and my bulimia got really bad and I asked for help and I didn't receive the help that I needed."[280] Moreover, she recalled that her thought process the night she relapsed following six years of sobriety was as follows: "I'm six years sober and I'm miserable. I'm even more miserable than I was when I was drinking. Why am I sober?"[280] When Lovato confronted her management team about her thoughts, they responded with, "You're being very selfish, this would ruin things for not just you but for us as well," which she says made her feel "completely abandoned" due to triggering her underlying abandonment issues with her birth father, and so she "drank that night".
Juice Wrld: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Juice_Wrld
Death
On December 8, 2019, Higgins was aboard a private Gulfstream jet flying from Van Nuys Airport in Los Angeles to Midway International Airport in Chicago. Law enforcement officers were waiting for the jet to arrive, having been notified by federal agents, while the flight was en route, that they suspected there were guns and drugs on the plane.[103] Law enforcement officials later revealed they found three handguns and 70 lb (32 kg) of marijuana on the aircraft.[104] They also said several members of Higgins' management team aboard the flight told them that Higgins had taken "several unknown pills",[104] including allegedly swallowing multiple Percocet pills to hide them while police were on board the plane searching the luggage.[105]
Higgins then began convulsing and seizing, after which two doses of the emergency medication Narcan were administered as an opioid overdose was suspected.[106] Higgins was transported to the nearby Advocate Christ Medical Center in Oak Lawn, where he was pronounced dead.[107][108]
Higgins' funeral was held on December 13, 2019, at the Holy Temple Cathedral Church of God in Christ in Harvey, Illinois.[109] Friends and family were in attendance, including collaborators Ski Mask the Slump God and Young Thug.[110]
On January 22, 2020, the Cook County Medical Examiner stated that Higgins died as a result of toxic levels of oxycodone and codeine present in his system.[111]
