PICK-UP pt. I
It's true that in order to do a higher-level thinking skill set like writing you have to have some pre-requisites e.g. hearing own voice, not ptsd triggering/flashbacking, able to re-read and edit requiring the ability to hold more than one thought (not being in-the-moment only) and other basics.
I'm going to start writing the worst behaviors & it is focused on one gender since that's the experience. The use of pronouns in this story is to know when people are talking about you in front of your face & the 2 specialists showing me how they erroneously diagnose in order to make their job easier did that. I watched their non-private conversation & interrupted several times to clarify what they were saying & most importantly to disagree. Also, the suggestion to to just google IDEA (individuals with disability education act) went uncommented on & undone.
Manic according to them was "the feeling of grandiosity & a sense of changing the world," and I said, "oh, that's the issue. I said change the law. Just google IDEA" because I'm not manic. I'm certain this violence had a purpose since I was 31 & 33 when assaulted (two rounds) and maybe it was to see behind-the-scenes.
There is no doubt my writing & voice samples taken as a way to "dampen" the lack of progress monitoring in a school that had to mathematically computer grAdes, but decided they didn't have to do that...anyway, this is difficult to state here. I'll be editing & working on it simultaneously going through the paper trail in my office & digitizing it because I'm through TOUCH--ptsd is sensory. ptsDuh.
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