paulaf

I came to my first OA meeting early, thought it was a free weight watchers. 

My family enjoys exercise and outdoorsy stuff. 

My dad put a padlock on the pantry for me and a padlock on the liquor cabinet for my brother.

For a long time my I thought the most important thing was that I was not slim. Being fat was the cause for all my problems.

In 1999 I went to OA full of shame the whole meeting  but kept coming back.

Physical recovery was the last thing I achieved.

I know I am either maintaining or gaining. That thought helps me stay on course.

My Dad locked food not knowing what to do with me.

In college I had unsupervised access to all the food I wanted.

 * * Missing first 2 minutes of the talk * * *

Diets and drama worked for a minute.

I got to 12 step though my husbands' recovery.

Real recovery is more than meetings and prayer.

Terror, fear and hunger all felt the same in my body.

Yellow light foods are really red light foods I am unwilling to give up.